It's that time of the year again...

Hey there, I felt like I just have to relieve some problems I have in me...

Problem number 1)

I am jealous that everyone gets to train and do well and compete in the competitions that are upcoming but only me, I am unabled to do so. I'll be watching from the sidelines. I'll be feeling all left out. I'll be feeling very useless, trying to support everyone to do their best, to smile when I feel like crying, to congratulate when I m the one that needs encouragement.

My coach, he just doesn't care. Can't train? Too bad. The hurdles team looks like a fun team. They laugh and joke and train at the same time. Everyone supports one another. Everytime I feel like I can run and the pain would not come back, my ankles prove me wrong. They tell me to stop. I don't want to be left out... :( what's more is that ben has just gotten into hurdles, and it makes me happy me to see him run but it males me jealous and long to run again...

What can I do? My ankles have started to complain to me
again. I wonder when my doctor would make an appointment to see my results. I hope it's nothing serious and it is something that can be fixed fast enough. I m getting too fat and lazy to train. No one motivating me to come back also. I'll be the outcast in the whole entire group. The one that's lagging behing everyone else. What can I do, but wait...


Problem number 2)
something I can't tell on a blog. Hais. At least I feel better. :) I'll stop here. Gotto sleep. Have to wake up at 4 to fast. :) wish me luck! Amin! :)