Things look like they are crashing into the ocean for now.Maybe i should be doing a head stand to see things positively again?

Deep-Deep-Deepavali's coming! Hari Raya isnt done. and guess what else is on its bloody way?

I.V.P!

its my version of R.I.P. oh man. hurdles. scrambled eggs. how?

today, i had an old ugly perverted uncle lick his lips at me. at the mrt tracks. (SICK SHIT I SWEAR) i was so freaking angry that when ruben called at that time, i just answered so bluntly cos in my head i was thinking, WTF! i was running through all the swear words in my head. damn. so gross.i felt so gross. oh well. i tried to tell someone but he was working so he couldnt have the time to hear me so i kept that disgust all the way till i met him. then, i still felt disgusted. up till now. i just cant forget that ass's face. damn gross.damn GROSS.

well. the i came back at around 5ish? yeah. then sat outside the house with tinkie and took photos cos the sun was beautiful as it alsways is.but the light rays were just about perfect. haha. got a photo i took eith tinkie that i love but like its kinda shakey for some reason. but i still love it. if you can see my fb diplay pic then yeah. thats the photo. or maybe i'll just upload it. hahah. oh well.

i dressed really nice today. i kinda liked it. but i still feel insecure. in some way. i still dont think i'm pretty (i think i'm average. i think most people think i am). my parents are bringing my hopes down, not letting me grow up. honestly, i'm just really sad now. happy sometimes, but deep down still quite sad. oh well. my parents dont  trust me anymore, neither do they believe me anymore, they rather trust a total stranger then trust my words so yeah. kill me someone please. i told this to people many times, i am not someone who is outspoken. my courage runs the opposite direction from where i need to go. anyway. i gotto go. tmrw is a new day. and i will survive. and i will be okay. i will get better. things will get better. i just have to forgive my past. for me to move on. thats what i like about myself. i know things can get better if i do smth. and i will.