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Today I went to NUH to get a consultation with the orthopeadic doctor. It was quite an irritating yet funny day overall. So! I woke up at like 7.30 when I was supposed to get up at 6.30. That was the original plan. But, I was just too tired to wake up.
Anyway got up at 7.30 to the sound of my munmy screaming for me to wake up. :| hais. Hahaha. Got up, reaf the papers, bathed and change and we all got out by 9. On the way, realised my mm had not taken the referal letter. My dad got angry and my mum was saying it's ok it's okay. In the end she got the neighbourhood doc to fax it over.
Anyway, we went into the room where two doctors came in. One was a Chinese guy and the other a Indonesian guy. In my opinion, I felt they were very unprofessional in the way they talk and behave like as if I wasn't there and that I was some kind of animal being examined. Turns out they were both the interns to the doctor serving me. The doctor himself was a funny pleasent guy. Patient in answering my mother who was so sidetracked.
About my mum, she told the Chinese intern about my previous xray I had when I was in sec2 for MY BACK! What the heck does my ANKLE have anything to do with MY BACK last time?!?! Omgosh I was so frustrated. Then the intern was like " err, so which injury are you coming here for?" -_-" I wished my dad was there. Goodness. Then she was all so flirty trying to be funny with the doctor all. Jeez. Okay lah not flirty just you know very chatty and impressive to the doctor which I totally not.
Back to the problem. The real doctor examined my foot, then he said it might be the AFT something something. Ah. Don't know what all these chim chim words doctors use. Haha. Said I had to go for an MRI scan to check it out. Prolly he said "your ankle ligaments might have been torn and maybe part of my bone came off too thus it hurts" oh yah! And he said I had really flexible ligaments. Normal ligaments are like shoelaces, he tells me, and mine are like rubber bands. Haha. My arms are longer than my actual height! Haha amazing ah! Hahaha. Wtfish.
So yeah my appointment is on the 6th of august like 3mths away. -_-" so long. Pain for soo long. :( then see the doctor to go for recovery stage. Cry lah. So long. That means this year I cannot run. Plus I lose out on taking part in next years events too. I won't be prepared. How to? :'( I m so sad right now. I really wish I can train you know. Training looks like so much fun now. And I m missing out. Oh wells. This sucks like shit. I m
so prone to injuries cos of my flexible ligaments. I m also prone to having heart murmurs and heart related problems cow the heart gets overworked. :/ scaryyy!
Recently I've been feeling rather insecure. I don't think I am pretty I don't feel pretty and yes I do compare myself to girls that usually make guys go gaga. -_-" today I was people watching and I was looking at Akif and Melissa talking. Melissa is the kind of girl that guys like. Pretty, long hair, cute,quite chatty. Akif is like those mix-with-Chinese-more-than-Malay kinda Malay guy. Why can't guys just open their eyes you know. They don't have to always go with girls who are like those. Ah but that's the way I think right? I m talking rubbish here. So yeah I m gonna sign out now and sleep!
Lovez,
Noreen
♥our lips must always be sealed
12:14:00 am
Gooood morning Singapore! :) what a nice cooling day it is! :) ahhh. Today, I only have an hour of class. No morning 11am-1pm class, no lecture from 5-6! Hahaha. Just an hour of business entrepreneurship from 4-5pm! Yay! Haha. The sad thing is, I still have to go for project work at 11.30 and I m sooooo gonna be late. Why? Blame the bus. I missed it. And now it's taking so effing long to come out of it's slumber. Sighs. Georgina is so gonna be mad at me. :/
Well I m quite afraid of Georgina. Haha. To be honest. She's like this really tomboyish lookin girl but in a way she's also quite girlish too. She's loud and "rough" but also very easily hurt as in physically. So she gets really angry, really quickly! And this scares me to death. For example, the other day, I did the MBS, Alice (managing business systems -Microsoft access and Alice) and I wanted to send it to her through email cos I was suppose to. I made the airplane move towards the garbage truck alrdy, and she wanted to do some programming and stuff. I went into my hotmail and I realised I couldn't even read any of my mails, and even worse, I couldn't even send an emails! Wtfish right! I was so pissed cos I took the whole entire afternoon trying to send it to her. In the night I had an effing bad headache after dinner and I went to sleep early. Georgina calls me, with her voiced raised and saying to my sleepy ear, " CAN YOU SEND ME THE FILE NOW? I HAVE NO TIME TO WASTE OKAY?" I told her I couldn't send and smth was wrong with the hotmail thing and that I couldn't read her MSG that she sent me. She said "I KEEP TELLING YOU TO ASSIGN THE WORK TO EVERYBODY! I KEEP TELLING YOU THAT!" and with that she hung up. I who was alrdy sleeping and still having a headache woke up feeling rather fucking angry. I opened and switched on my computer going into my hotmail account and guess what?! I had no internet connection! Fml man! Could it be any worse?
Oh hell yeah it did. "All that can go wrong, will go wrong" and that effing quote is FOR REAL. Serious you know! I asked my mum to lend me her com for AWHILE only just to send smth to my friend. She says, " huh!? No Internet? Can! Sure have one. Let me find. I m using my com." like duhhh I know you are using your com. I m not gonna open it and fiddle with it like some 3 year old would. I just wanna OPEN another browser and lo into hotmail and send the effing file! Sighs. Until I raised my voice and let her try to "fix" it herself, only then did she allow me to use her com. Think that's the end of it?
No way in hell! I went on to hotmail on My Mum's computer, and guess what? I could type and everything. And see the images, but! I can't fucking attach a damn file! Wtfish! I was so pissed until I just used my mums outlook to send it to Georgina. After that was done, I came back to my room to find that she smses me again typing out in caps, "HEY CAN YOU SEND ME THE FILE NOW BEFORE YOU SLEEP?!" I was so pissed at the world! I smsed back saying I sent it to her alrdy. Then she replied "okay got it alrdy. I ll send an email to everyone when my hotmail is okay. You help me to send to Yadana(my closest friend in class)take care."
I was like -_-" to the mantle core and crust man. Curses! Jeez. So tiring. I went backto sleep only after ben ben calmed me down and reduced the pounding in my brain. Phew. That was the end of my meticulous day. Finally.
Now, I m on the way to school with and empty stomach. I m hoping to get some hashbrown or smth somewhere. Haha. Craving. Hmmm. I need more chocolates! Oh no! My dark chocolate from Hersheys bought by ben ben is in the other bag! Crap. No chocolates for me today. :( sad. Sighs. I wanna see ben ben. He's feeling a little down now. :/ oopsie. My headache came back. Sighs must be due to the fact that I m meeting Georgina and groupies later. :( sighs. Anyway, today isn't that bad! I shan't let anything affect me! I'll do well! Alright!
See ya dudes and dudettes!!
-Noreen! <3
Labels: Morning blues
♥our lips must always be sealed
11:20:00 am
I m gonna be so left out when I am able to come back to track and field. I feel so sad etching them train. To me, training is about friends. With friends you WANt to come fo training again. It keeps you motivated to attend the training sessions. It's where you catch up with friends that you are really close to, or to catch up with your training friends that you just rather know in track. Look at me. I m sitting down here, at the steps, looking at freshies and seniors and juniors all training together having fun. Enjoying their workout, losig weight. But me? What am I doing? Sitting down on the steps. Just, sitting down like a lazy bum. Well, currently my bum, IS lazy. Yupps someone cry me a river cos right now, my heart is crying rivers of tears in unseen valleys deep with itself. It's a mental and emotional pain. Running is where I release energy, where I feel confident. It's something I know I am good in, something I can be proud of.
But now, what do I have left of in track, that I should be proud of? I m gaining weight, getting lazy, getting more stressed and it looks like crying is the only way out for now. Damn this ankle pains. The pain affects my heart and mind too. It's sickening to know everyone I know is at their ideal weight and I am just getting FATTER and FATTER. Does anyone care? I m not sure.
I look at them and I imagine what I would be doing, how I would be like, how much fun I would have. Makes me sad. :( oh wells. Have to live with what lemons god gives us right? How many times can I blame that ass of a coach who didn't bother to listen to me when I SAID my ankles hurt? How many times? I know it was partly my fault for not listening to my body. For not listening to the pain it was telling me. Sighs. My fault in the end.
I m happy though that ben ben is back in track and having fun like he is supposed to. Getting fitter like he's supposed to. Oh Noreen, just
move off alrdy. Go home. Don't suffer in silence alrdy. Forget about it. Wait till everything gets better. :) you can survive. I know you can. Go home now. :)
So with this, I shall say,
goodbye track. Some day I shall visit you again when my ankle gets better.
Someday.
-Noreen
Labels: Track and field
♥our lips must always be sealed
6:54:00 pm
A bagpack 
Saturday, 22 May 2010