Resistance♥

Sunday, 25 October 2009

me very impatient.
impatient impatient.

i have danced in the toilet,

came out singing to a sara bareille song,

played sims 2 for what seemed like 20mins but actually was around 2 hours,

went to eat dinner for like 45mins ( yes i eat extremely slow. ask my besties.) ,

did 2 cards for around an hour plus,

then logged out of sims2 to check my email and delete nonsense,

then decided to check my facebook only to see that hykel finally replied to a post,

then replied him,

then i went to check out people's photos,

went back and forth to boy boy's fb page,

then hamid came online back from his walk,

so now, i'm chatting with him and its alrdy 10pm,

the manchester vs liverpool match is underway,

some tracker just smsed me bringing me false hope that it was boy boy,

and GUESS WHAT!

HE STILL HASNT GOT BACK YET!

I'M WORRIED SICK TO MY GUTS!

urgh, so frustrating. when is he coming backkk ? ? ? ? ): ): ): ): ):

Labels: run time run...

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9:46:00 pm

A day without him seems so long. hmm.

he comes back tonight. (: yay. talk to him later. oh man. tmrw is school again. nxt week gotto really come back for school properly. i cannot skip or take mc. i will not.oh manss.

i'm so bored. dont know what to do. hmm. i dont have anyone to talk to, i have nothing to do, i dont feel like playing sims. maybe i should just start dancing around my room close the door and dance?

HAHA. yeah. or maybe i should just bring my com into the toilet and then i will dance while bathing? HAHA . sounds like a good idea. haha.

in awhile i will put my plan in action. anyway, i wanna join piriyah and fiona in this scrapbooking class. i think it will be fun (: always is with pi pi around. (: HAHA. right pi?

hmm. kinda excited. i've always wanted to do it. another class i wanted to sign up was bellydancing. :P but i shy. bwahaha. but i feel like going for it. haha. maybe. i'll think about that again. haha.

i kinda feel like experiencing a night at a club. haha. maybe cos i'm listen to "sexy bitch" by david guetta. hahaha. its a nice song. makes me wanna dance. :P hahah! shhhh. anyway, its gonna be one of my dancing songs later. :P HAHAHA. SHHHHHH.

anyway, my day was so Shinggz. haha.dont have ruben to make my day BOOMzz. hahaha. oh well. ris low, thank you for your very nice english. hahaha.

well, imma go and dance now to a playlist of songs worth a good whole 50mins.

so,
ciaos amigos/bella ! (:

*Lets all spin around in circles, smiling and laughing, troubles fading away with every breath we take!*

Labels: dance dance till your heart never stops spinning (:

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5:17:00 pm

Saturday, 24 October 2009

Ray was a bloody idiot. yes, he was. he was never there, always partying, always drinking, always smoking. what WAS I THINKING??? hahaha. oh wells. but he made me open my eyes, he made me realise that, Yes, love IS a strong word. i dont think i ever regret knowing him. if i had never met him, i wouldnt have understood people like him, i would never have met my boy. things in life are interlinked, intertwined. things happen for a reason.

i'm kind of an introvert due to the surroundings of my upbringing. haha. although, i am not a very very intro-introvert lah.

well. bern's bro, brandon has got a job with my help, which i hope he does well cos it will count to the ruben meter for my mum. haha. i've been having a bit of quarrels over small small stuff with bern cos like i said, i'm not a very open person. i try, but its only after bern kinda starts pestering me in a good way. (: oh wells. i'm trying. i dont wanna quarrel anymore. ): haha.

i'm missing him now. he's at KL for a short holiday with the boys. they're going to Sunway Lagoon. ): i wish i could go too! ): no fair, wild wild wet is nothing compared to sunway. ): awww man. anyway, its all guys so i'll be a bit awkward if i went. haha.

anyway. i gotto go study. i have to make a difference this sem. so that assholes wont be breathing down my back again plus they wont have anything to complain against me. i've gotto go revise my business accounting since i missed the first lecture. damn. haha. soo, ciaosie.

ciao bella.

Labels: at times like these we learn to love.

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12:26:00 pm

Thursday, 22 October 2009

confused. i've been having so many happy days, so many struggles... now, i'm just scared.
i love him. i really really do. but damn my mum. so persistent, so irritating, so bothersome and she just doesn't realise it. don't she see how other's react? how other's feel? how other's behave?
she keeps saying that my grandfather is so hard headed, so stubborn, so ignorant. i feel like telling her that sometimes, SHE TOO acts like him. exactly the same. imposing their beliefs onto others, what THEY think is right. this was one reason i took sociology. understanding behaviours, of the society, of the different generations. yeah.oh man. it hurts.
well, i had a dream last night. one where i woke up bawling my eyes out. it was kinda telling me about my present life, how i feel about things. i think next year, i wanna take psychology. it will be interesting. erm... about the dream.

well it kinda started with my father spraying water on my shorts till i had to squeeze the water out of it, then i was making noise about it, and because of that my dad got irritated and scolded me. then it moved on to a point where they didnt believe anything i said or did... i shouted and screamed till the point that i was crying. literally bawling in my dream. woke up with tears in my eyes. yeah. shocked the shit outta me but it made me laugh? weird right?

hah. i;m feeling awkward now. i feel like a pain in the ass for some people you know. inferior complex problem of mine. i just think too much about people's feelings. oh man. my mum is creating so much worry for boy's mum. by telling her in every sentence that me and him can only be friends. i understand i realise i wanna help stop it, BUT HOW?! what the heck can i do? i'm not even supposed to know what they talked about. ): it hurts. and i'm sick of making people worried at my expense. i kinda got his mum to lie for me too although i didnt ask her, boy did. and i feel really bad. i dont wanna trouble people, i dont. i really like his mum alot cos she's really modern about relationships and stuff. my mum's just scaring everyone away, and she gets offended when i tell others that she's fierce. she just doesnt show it to everyone. people, phrase of the day..

DONT BELIEVE EVERYTHING YOU SEE ABOUT A PERSON.

the clue to understanding someone, is to watch, listen, and then evaluate. what actions did the person do, why did the person do it? what did they person say? why did they say it? what was their tone like? how did you perceive it? then come up to a conclusion of what you think the person is like. it might not always be right, but at least you dont assume that a person is bad or good at first glance.

why am i talking about this, i have no idea. oh wells. urgh. crazy confusion. i am the good girl vs the bad girl. what am i?

ciaos bella.

Labels: mistakes

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9:32:00 pm

Saturday, 10 October 2009

Ok. I am pissed. Yeap. Noreen, is jealously pissed.

Although she knows that her bf will not cheat on her but that ***t should not be anywhere near him. i swear. bloody hell. i just need to complain lah. hahaha. hmmm. well, i'm surprised i'm angry but hey, I'm only human. well... What Can I Sayy??? hahaha. hell. she says she's dressing up like a red indian. YEAH RIGGGHHHTT. Red indian heh. well, silly ah lian, lemme tell you smth. you look like you were dressing up more like ris than anything else you were "supposed" to be. haha. yupps. a red indian does not just come to a party with a damn headband on your head dear girl. a red indian, if you WANT to actually be one, comes with a red indian outfit. jeez. noreen is one angry girl. i swear.

hrumph. so pissed. seeing her face makes my blood boil. jeez. the boy isnt making things worse. plus plus. they worse thing is right that this whole week i've had uncles acting weirdly around me. first case, was when i was wearing a tank top and a skirt to meet boy. i was at bishan mrt platform waiting for the train to come. there was this uncle just walking around looking at the group of girls walking in front of me. then right, when he saw me, HE FREAKING LICKED HIS LIPS SLOWLY IN MY DIRECTION.UGRH. like puhleassee. not nice at all. hmm..then there was one on tuesday, this tuesday, where i finished training and was going home. then right, so digusting. cos right, i was sitting at the bus stop, when this uncle on the motorbike beeped his bike's horn. i was smsing boy, i looked up cos like i was wondering what happened? then right, the uncle just stared at me pass the bus stop while riding the motorbike. wahlau... ): so digusted. am i like really an uncle magnet? thats damn sad. anywayyy. the worse is yet to come. i was feeling so digusted.

YESTERDAY. hah. yesterday was damn fun. first i went to bern's house, ate porridge there, then since wayne was done with PSLE bern brought him to play badminton at our school. so we booked the courts for him. then... we got there at 3.15, got the net, they started playing first, then i went to change. in the changing room, i saw a handphone and a wallet. i thought someone was in there cos it was placed so neatly summore. so i went like looking around to see if there was anyone in the toilets or the changing room. no one. so, like i was thinking of possiblities. honestly i thought of ghosts too. :P hahahaha.yeahh. then i went to change first then come out and see how. when i came out i thought it would be gone. but noo. still there. so i went to open the wallet to see who it belongs to. but then i dont know who. haha. so i went to take both the phone and the wallet and ran up to the office. passed it to the uncle and ran back down to the badminton court.

i was playing with wayne against bern (the "pro") but he only won us by a few lorr. we had a streak of scores which lasted like a total of 5 scores i think. haha. then bern just got lucky. hahahahaha. oh wells.as i was playing against wayne, a girl came up and asked me, "Did you see a track girl playing badminton here?" i replied, "ya." then she asked, "Do you know where is she?" and me being so slow and silly went, ".... OH. ME. haha. me why?"hahaha. yups. ok. doesnt sound as funny as if i told you personally. oh well. my life is dreary. Oh well. then when we were going home after changing, Jaq WINKED AT ME! aiyah. not feeling well now. nothing much to say now. ):

oh i just lost my motivation to do anything. my hamstrings hurts, my ankles hurt, i'm not feeling well, tmrw is the race. and i'm tired. sian.kk. i go sleep first. g'd night.

ciao bella.

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3:39:00 pm

Thursday, 1 October 2009

Things look like they are crashing into the ocean for now.Maybe i should be doing a head stand to see things positively again?

Deep-Deep-Deepavali's coming! Hari Raya isnt done. and guess what else is on its bloody way?

I.V.P!

its my version of R.I.P. oh man. hurdles. scrambled eggs. how?

Labels: the truths of the world.

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11:19:00 pm