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On this day of your life, Noreen, we believe God wants you to know...
... that today is a big day for you.
Yes, today. Keep your eyes open for a message. It might come in a shape of a bird flying overhead, or a graffiti on a wall, or a phrase said by a passerby, or... Whatever shape it has, this message has been trying to reach you for years, and today is finally the day. Keep your senses open.
I' M KEEPING MY SPIDER SENSES, MY SIX SENSES, AND MY ULTRA-EXTRAORDINARY-UNBELIVABLY-SUPER-DUPER-WICKED-KICKASS SENSES ON FULL ALERT! ITS SO HIGH, THAT I HAVE NO MORE EXAMMSSS!!!! WHAHAHAHAHA. i think that was what i needed to keep my senses open for. i need to learn and relax. the message was that all the days i have prayed for my exams to be over and done with, ARE ACTUALLY HERE! WHEEEEEHEEEHEEE. hahaha. hyper lah. i just wanna scream and shout. haha.so so so. today was accounting paper. it was OHHHkayy lah. i can do. i think i can pass. i was able to do most of the questions. i got some mistakes here and there. hmm.. okok. i making myself scared. haha. okok. soo..lets see. today. what a exciting funny day. haha.first, was when ruben attempted to say a hurtful/cheesy-comeback line. haha. BUT as you all know, i AM the cheesy master... (yes, i can here all of you saying 'cheyy cheyy' to your computer screen,but admit the truth okay?) ... so, ruben's attempt at cheesyness was a FAILED ATTEMPT! hahahahaaha. yupps failed. he is learning from the master here.. haha. :P OH shutt upp. haha. how cheesy can YOU get huh? Huh? :p hahahahaha. kk. anyway, ruben told me to "YOU CAN GET LOST..." but he wanted to say smth to counter the harshness of the words BUT he couldnt. hahahaha. then, after he told me what he wanted to actually say, i helped him finish the sentence. haha. HE got so touched by it although it took him awhile to understand what i was trying to say. hahaha. kk. so my version goes like this... you say "get lost" in an angry tone... like "YOU CAN GET LOST!..." then you say in a sweet, soft tone,"... in my heartt.. <3">
kk. second thing, today, i got so intrigued by the BAKUGAN toy that i went to buy one for myself. the 2nd version one. (: ruben's lil bro gave me his version one bakugan. the darkside bakugan. bakugans are fighters. haha. its like those card games kinda like cardcaptor sakura or err digimon/zoids kinda thing. haha. i cant explain it now but if you wanna know more im me or smth. ahaha. i am damn happy with my bakugans, i swear. hahaha.
thrid thing, I WITNESSED A THEFT AT BORDERS ORCHARD!?!?! LIKE HELLLOOO DUMB OR DUMBER man!??! stealing from borders?! what is there to steall? hmm.. ok. there are expensive stuff. haha. err. but the guy got caught. hmm. i'll explain more tmrw.i gotto sleep. parents nagging. haha. nighties
sayonara!
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10:47:00 pm
On this day of your life, Noreen, we believe God wants you to know... ... that you can only give away what you already have inside yourself.
True giving happens when you are overflowing from the inside, and cannot help but share. When there is so much love within you that it has to flow to others or you would burst open. There is no thinking involved, no willpower in such sharing. It just flows out. If you have to force yourself to be kind, to love, to feel compassion, you've missed the first step of filling in your own Self with these emotions.at2pmtoday:
honestly, this computer generated messages really do link somehow to my feelings now. hmm. today is really such a nice lazy day. i feel like sleeping you know. hahaha. like just lazying around. haha. the weather so cold cos of the multiple rains pouring down. ahh. so damn nice..
urgh. noreen. move your body. move your mind. oh man. you know what can help me? FOOD. oh yes. FOOD oh FOOD. hahaha. andd boy boy. oh hang on, he's the PIGGY boy now. cos he slept for another 30 mins after i woke him up. hahaha. and i'm gonna start studying in another 6 mins. sian sia! oh man. boy taking long to reply. i wonder why? hmm. oh wells better shut down the comp.
sayonara.
at8.06pmtoday:
i'm full. haha. i just ate my dinner. hahaha.yay. food. (: ate roti john (dad made it) and two pieces of prata. and i was full on that. hahaha.yupps. tmrw is my pom paper. i'm not ready for it. i cant seem to get anything stuck onto my head. lets see. i can remember the basic process of planning...
1)State Goals
2)List alternative ways to attain goals
3)Describe assumptions on each alternative ways.
4)Pick the best alternative way.
5) Create a plan on how to carry it out.
6) CARRY PLAN OUT.
yeah. err lets see.. what else?
strategic goals/plan : - long term (5 yrs and more)
- done by top management
- broad perspectives
- for the whole organisation.
Tactical goals/plan : - Intermediate terms (1 to 3 yrs)
- done by the middle management
- slightly more specific that strategic goals/plans
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blah blah blah. haha. i'm reading the mindmaps the teachers put up so i can understand how it links. POM IS A BORING SUB! oh man. i dont wanna retake it. so i am gonna chiong for a pass. i know i can pass. i can i can. then tmrw after test, i chiong for business accounting on wednesday. aish. biz acc. not that bad lah. i still can cope. i must go remember my formats. that all. then i will pass!
tension tension. now its 9.50pm. i'll sleep at 10.15pm. wake up at 4.15am for sahur then go back to sleep till 6.40am to go to school.
okok. gotto go. nighties! all the best to those having their papers this week! :)
sayonara!
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2:06:00 pm
On this day of your life, Noreen, we believe God wants you to know...
... that every little part of you is magical.
Yes, even the parts that hurt, even the ones that are feeling disease right now. It's alright to love what is in pain. More than alright, that's exactly where your love is needed the most. So why not touch that part that hurts and smile at it, at yourself through it, and whisper: ''I love you.''How the heck does this computer generated messages always manage to hit home on my feelings? damn. its awfully weird. its really some magical inspiration there.anyway, i've got a feeling. hahaha. i'm listening to the song. nice uh. haha.i got a feeling, that tonight's gonna be a good night.
hmm..
this feeling. hm.. you know, i'm hungry. but i'm hungry for two things in particular. one, is FOOD. (yupps, fasting now lah) damn. and secondly, i'm hungry for my boy. heh. yeah. i know i sound really mushy mushy now. and noreen doesnt do mushy stuff right? hehe. but hell. love changes everything. if you know what i mean? hahaha. well, i always had this concept that it was kinda creepy to call others dear or baby or stuff like that. it just goes to show i was never really in love at that time.
or maybe i just got hurt to many times that i couldnt understand it. hmm. true. that could be the reason. but boy boy here has made me realise why lovers call each others mushy names. hahaha. yes i understand and i cant help but say it too. :P hahahaha. yes. i miss him. i wish i was in school studying with him too. i've got another 4 hours till i break my fast. i just want to be with him lah. damn i cant even study now. i'm feeling super uber lazy. i think i might fall asleep. no food ah. damn. i just want my boy.
hmm. i've been reading my other posts and i realise i sound so sad. well, hmm. i might sound sad but my blog is just a way to relieve my stress. i have many happy joyful times that i dont manage to type out on my blog. hmm.. honestly, i love to be around boy. cos he really makes me smile like crazy. he makes me laugh, he comes up with really really random stuff. which always makes me laugh. i just want to be there for him. to help him with any problems that he faces. so simple right? haha. yeapps. my lil care bear. hmm..
so about my school life. school, i'm happy, but i'm not happy. haha. i'm stuck in this feeling. i dont really have any good friends in class. i miss my friends, my classmates from ssp cos we were always so close. any problem and i could go to them. hmm. i just cant click with my classmates. :/ is it me or what? hmm i dont wanna fail any of my subs. i dont wanna be a floater. not fun sia. i think my micro-econs was okay. i dont think i willl do extremely well lah. hmm. principles of management on monday, i kinda hate this sub. but like its one of the most common sense answers. but so much things to memorise. damn.
i damn lazy to move outta my bed. so hungry. i smell someone cooking summore. make me hungrier. damn. i miss MY BOY! what the heck. my heart is really aching you know. its like one part of it is missing something. not sure if you know what i mean.
hmm. i'm gonna go on a holiday soon. like on the 14th of sept? going to germany, milan, rome yeah. to europe lah. hahaha.
kk. i stop here. its becoming too long. haha.
sayonara. (:
♥our lips must always be sealed
2:11:00 pm
guess what?
I'M SICK AGAIN! YUPPS~
oh man. this time i feel really ill. i've got flu and cough. not just any kind of cough, its the dry one. so its damn itchy and irritating. damn. plus i'm havung muscle aches. like those that you feel really tired kinds. yeah. sounds a lot like H1N1 right? hmm. i should go check out a doctor. sekali i really have then how? liddat i've infected a whole group of people. hmm. but how come no one around me is getting sick? hmm. i'm not having a fever though. oh wells.mummy and daddy dont really think its that much of a deal. so yeah. i havent seen a doctor. oh wells. i went to the polyclinic myself. so yeah.it isnt that hard.doctor gave me a huge bottle of cough syrup which tastes horrible to the core. so damn bitter i almost puked. but guess what? the cost of it was only 70 cents! geez. the difference between a private doctor and the ones in a polyclinic. hahaha. oh hel. i miss my friends and my boy.oh yeah before i forget, a special thanks going out to HAMID and PRESLEY for covering up for me and coming down to say hi when i was working. cheered my day. (:also a special thanks to a special teddy bear who came down the next day eventhough there was a risk involved. i love you.oh man. my eyes starting to shut. tmrw i gotto go school. sigh. today i went to school early plus i was so damn sick. i felt so angry with myself. i sat alone in the library waiting to eat lunch with teddy. but he was late and his class started at 12 and ended at 3. i was alone all the way, still sick, sniffing and coughing. sighs. had a headache seeing so many people. i was reading a book called the ruins. oh man. such a sick story.. so gruesome. but the author wrote it so interestingly that i didnt put it down till i finished it. after that i felt sick in the stomach cos the ending wasnt as i suspected it to be. sighs. i lost my appetite then. there's something weird about being alone. it made me feel so many things. independent, lonely, brave yet scared. i wanted to feel a familiarity. ah. well. after that long long time alone, i felt blanked. i didnt know what to feel. plus with the sicky feeling, i was suddenly too tired. i just wanted to be alone with no one walking around me, no noise. weird isnt it, to suddenly feel that way. anyone felt that way before? i realised i've changed, i admit it. but i still love those times in sports school.honestly i wish i still had that security the place brought. the friends we made. we are so close eventhough we are so far. how i miss those times. wow. its like close to a year alrdy. so fast. sighs. kays. i'm gonna take a rest now. type again later. sayonara.Labels: sick and tired; literally
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7:41:00 pm
hold me close and dont let go... i need to know how you feel too. i'm falling to pieces so dont let go...oh. i'm so moody. i have come up with a theory. i think its because of the full moon. yupps. i heard that the full moon makes people feel depressed more. lots of suicides and breakups. yupps. i heard lah. not sure where i heard from also. hehe. well. i havent bathed. haha. and its 9.52pm. haha. oh hell.
hmm. i think i just made him sad. cos i asked him what he would do if i left him.hmm. so mean huh come to think of it. hmm. but right, he keep saying in a joking way that he will leave me. recently its been too much lah. haha. i know he's joking but there comes a point where i cant take it. where the joke just stops being funny. you know what i mean? sighs. just that day, he asked me what i would do if he walked away from me. so i told him i would just go back home. i honestly, would not know what to do. i was thinking that i would be too shocked to do anything until after he had left the place. ha. can you imagine me being shocked? i can. urgh. horrible. well, it made me sad thinking about it. jeez. dont think he realised it though. oh anyways. its alright. he is quite blur to other people's feelings. so yeah. i understand.
well. i just asked him. he said he wont let me go. but he never actually answered me. oh wells. i bet he just couldnt imagine it happening and he wont know what he'd actually do. sighs. love.
oh man. saturday's coming up. tmrw i'm gonna go study. haha. ruben's gotto bring his lil brother to get his collectible car. hmm. i think wayne is such a nice boy. haha. i'd love to have him as my lil bro. haha. so naive. haha. but cute. heh.
i'm kinda lonely at home. what to do right? only child mahs. always alone. even with a cat. hell. i'm gonna go off. sayonara.
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9:50:00 pm
oh man. i'm so moody today, that i irritate myself to the maximum. the heat is unbearable.the slightest things make me so damn pissed. oh man.
i was listening to kelsey when i thought of ray. haha. i wonder how he is now. hmm... what a fella. "love is a strong word"-rayzacky mostafa. sighs. the person whom i thought would understand. ah. i guess i was wrong. he placed his friends before me. i understand. sighs. i didnt know him well enough i guess. anyway, i found my boy alrdy. haha.
he brings so much laughter to my life. haha. every small thing becomes a joy. he's been stressed out too. the projects rolled in for him. haha. poor boy. we all have projects what to do. haha.
ok gotto go sleep now. (: nights.
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10:26:00 pm
projects projects and more projects. but, they are all gone! (: hehehe. yupps. now i'm stuck with exams, one presentation, exams and more exams. ): damn.this saturday at 9.30 to 11am, i've got comm skills exam. report writing, oral communication etc. next wednesday at 9 to 12 i've got comm skills presentation.oh man. like heck. so muchthings to study. urgh.things have been happening to me. haha. not supernatural things. i'm blessed not to have those. my parents were called up to meet yeaun huei and his higher up (whatever his name is), to talk about my many absent attendence to training. hah. oh man. training. yeaps. i havent been training. no motivation. honestly. i mean, her training doesnt motivate me, the team doesnt motivate me cos the team spirit isnt there to be honest... and i have so many projects as well. and those in sports school should know that my time management has always been shitty. i never had good time management. well, the coach, the yuean huey and gang and my parents think that i am DISTRACTED. yupps. they all dont wanna say it. but my parents did. they all think that i am distracted because of ruben. hmm. i understand their concern, but honestly, if i didnt have him, i'd have broken down by now, under the pressure of the damn projects. really. cos my parents werent any help, coach was DEFINATELY of no help, and yuen huey and gang ( i thought they'd understand) definately did not do any better. well, i had help from him, from hamid, from harriet, from amanda, from mei xian, from all those who listened, who took my stress away from me for even the slightest moment. those small encouragement helped. what did my parents do? they gave me more stress. scolding me when i was finishing my project, nagging at me cos i never do other things, nagging cos they think i wasnt studying... urgh. how does that help?well, monday i went to talk to yuean huey and gang. without coach. she's not talking to me cos she knows alot of people were talking to me about it. hmm. they kept emphasising on one thing. that i am distracted. i can focus when i want to. i can. i really can. but now, the thing is my time management. how to focus when i'm not managing my time properly. i'm sick and tired of hearing people telling me about me being DISTRACTED. yeah. like thanks lah, arent you the DISTRACTION now? jeez. i just wanna take a break. i dont wanna see these people's faces. they make me angry. urgh.anyway, i'm studying hard now. for comm skills, for microecons, for business accounting, principles of management... yeah. i wanna reach the Bs that the yuean huey's-in-charge set for me. i really wanna hit it. prove to them. slap their faces for saying that my boy is a distraction. grr. i wont play LAN this friday. i will study. i will enjoy my saturday afternoon and sunday with friends. enjoy s'pore's birthday. (:oh wells. tmrw, i get to sleep in. (: yay. haha. class starts at 1pm. no comm skills. i'll revise for it tmrw morning. go there early, bring my com. do my work till 1pm. then 4pm i study abit maybe with bern and gang (doing their project) then... yeah. around 6ish then i go home? haha. home. yeap. my mum keeps asking me why i dont like to come home. i feel like telling her sometimes, that they keep nagging. they keep raising their voices.oh yeah. i gotto go. write again soon. ciaos.Labels: distraction my arse.
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10:49:00 pm
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