So i really really feel outta touch with my friends. i feel so left out. i dont know. maybe its just my moodswings or smth.its like when i talk to them, there is smth different about it. i dont feel any change in the way i speak, or maybe thats what i think. i havent been talking to them. maybe thats why. i dont know. now i just feel like talking to piriyah. going out with her.brr. this feeling makes me shiver. oh wells.
i'm so like unsure. there are multiple things disturbing me. one, my parents. two, my training. three, my friends drifting. four, my school work. five, money.
oh hell. i hate this seriously. the only thing i can do is to be with love or be in a windy place with peace and quiet or be in the water, swimming pool or bathtub, as long as i'm soaked. damn. so damn urghed.
kk .gotto go out smwhere. sian. tmrw fasting for a day. no food. oh man. what to do right? no choice. anyway. ciaos.batt dying.
love,
norr
and the wind blows her hair all over, whispering love stories in her ear, caressing her skin with its gentle breezes...
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♥our lips must always be sealed
2:39:00 pm
HOW CRAPPY CAN MY STOMACH BE?!?! ):):my stomach hurts. its churning. i feel like vomitting, cos its empty and its churning cos i ate something it couldnt stand. damn shit. ): not a good feeling. made me wake up from my sleep and do a 3s sprint to the toilet. ): i went once. came back. sat on the bed (i couldnt even get to lie down!),suffered the pain in a crouched position, before i ran back to the toilet again. so, the second time came and went. i was sleepy. so i kinda dozed off for a fews seconds, sitting on the bowl. :P heh. paiseh. i woke up,washed my hands and decided to just sit on the toilet floor and wait for the third time of painful churning. true enough, a few mins after i sat down, i was crouching again. Thank God for i could feel the enormous difference after that. but now it seems like i still have some unfinished business to do. hehe. maybe its just empty. empty tank. :P oh wells.. enough about my toilet experience. :)sooo. my friday, was kinda rushed. i slept at around 4am and was supposed to wake up at 6.30am. was damn tired. didnt even pack, didnt even take out my clothes for the next day. oh man. soo like right before i slept, i thought that i would just skip lecture, and come for project meeting. 6.30am came and went. i actually woke up. but i was too lazy to get out of bed. :P heh. i am a lazy bum, yes i know that. (: sooo. my mum crashed into my door, and was screaming at me to get up. so i was like "i'm going for the 11am one! same lecture different class!" -when actually the sub lecture was at 4pm not 11am. heh. yeah. hmm. so i left the house on time, reached school at 11am sharp, met love at the mushroom. --i wanted to have lunch with the gang. sushi. ): but all were either in class or gonna have class or alrdy ate. damn sad. feel so outta touch.-- love was so jonan-fied today. haha. sounded like jonan all the way from the mushroom,to the sushi place till i left him so i could do my project. wah. jonan the poot poot king. heh. :P sushi was GOOD! but we took two plates too much. heh. stuffed ourselves so we didnt have to pay extra. heng ah. damn salmon maki. haha. i had red ants in my F&N grape drink. so i got a new one. haha. yay! here's my cheesy line of the day:(when you have just jacked the person you loved, and they go 'so you own me now lah', just say...)
I always own you my love, cos i OWN your heart. *winks*CHEYCHEYYY.. noreen sehh. come up with this kinda crap. hahaha! oh man. haha. since when have i not come up with this kinda crap? hahahah!k. back to my story, i was SERIOUSLY TOTALLY SCREWED UP LATE for project. damn. i honestly dont like being late. its a bad habit to be late. really. it catches up to you if you dont smack it down to being tame again.damn. so i gotto make an apology to Zhijun, Cammie, Shi ying and James who waited for me and leonard for so long.
I AM SORRY FOR BEING LATE GIRLS + james. I REALLY AM.
but i dont know. it is my personal opinion lah but why didnt you guys start abit on P.O.M while waiting for us to come instead of watching the tv? no hard feelings or anything but if you could like brainstorm about it at least, then it would be much easier for us to start on the project right? i dont know. anyway, i stayed like 5 hours in school to do the findings for comm skills. man i love swimming. (: love loves swimming. swimming is fun with the right people. (: i feel like going to wild wild wet or smth.hahaha. i love water. it just keeps me relaxed. its like, water helps me to block out the sounds of everything else, it lets me think of the things both bothering me and also the things that make me of so very satisfied and happy. the quietness is like my sanctuary to allow my thoughts to flow, to allow me to think of the ways to solve/fixed my problems. it hide my tears when i cry. it cools me down when i am angry. i just submerge myself and let go. ah. that is how i feel about water lah. hehe. wah i like so chim liddat. hehe. so in depth. :P today's ending was so relaxing. so shiok.ah man. i miss my friends man, i really do. i'm gonna plan a day to go out with them man.seriously.hmmm.so. harriet, CONGRATS! hehe! i forgot to mention it. hahaha! oh well. i cant think of you as a 24 yr old cos honestly you remind me of at least a 19 to 20 year old. hahaso congrats! (:kk. i gonna sleep. damn tired. and hungry. haha. ok. nights!love,norr.Labels: cos i'll lay you down...
♥our lips must always be sealed
1:16:00 am
so much for feeling okay right? "i'm okay"- thats what i tell everyone. i mask it, i hide it, i fold it and stash it away. think its over noreen? noo.. think again. well. i am only human, so what more can i say to deny it? i'm not okay. i never was. maybe at one point i was. but when i'm not around those i love, those that "slap"me in the face (with facts) and tell me to wake up, the words those nincoompoops whisper, gets to me. yeap. it just hits me square in the heart. hah. bet you were thinking it would hit the face or smth. :P nah. it hurts the heart, these words from idiots.
well. i think, i have a feeling, ruben's drunk by now.. so much for cutting down on beer and ciggies. oh well. i can really seriously only help him till a certain extent. the rest is his own discipline. hope he doesnt do anything stupid. :/ i make him worry today. and i'm making him feel so uselessly dependable on me for money. hmm. i'm feeling abit frustrated too. he has to stop spending and start saving. he doesnt need to spend it on me. but he needs to chill out at home. then again, i'm the girlfriend of a party boy. haha. oh wells. as long as he doesnt do anything stupid when he's drunk. oh man. so worried i am.
sighs. things have been getting to me. words especially are getting to me. still. my counsellor has adviced me to relook the situation. look at it from a different point of view. my negative thoughts should be turned into positive. he made me see. thank god he told me. haha.thank god i have friends like him. my nakamas. haha. :P the only few i can actually tell stuff to with no hesitation. haha. why you may ask? hmm. that, only god can answer. they are just such awesome people. (: loves.from : NO WHERE to : NOW HERE. well if you were wondering, the person told my dear boy, that he could get someone MUCH MUCH better looking than me. my boy couldnt keep it from me, he told me, i apprieciated it. but no matter how i tell myself that it doesnt matter, the more it matters to me. cos the more i wonder, why? why does he bother sticking around? what for? i'm glad though. honestly. really fucking glad to have him. (excuse me, but only vulgarities make the cut for expressing my expression.) the idiot who said it, should have said it. really. you honestly dont want to be my enemy. hah. i make it sound like those who are my enemies actually die from smth. well. take it this way, i'm making myself feel good. feel strong. (: haha. oh well. if you consider me ignoring you when you say hi, me giving you the CB face when you look at me, me talking to you (if i have to) in a monotone way, something horrible terrible, then yeah. its not worth being my enemy. either be some one i know but isnt my best or good friends or just make your way to be my good/ best friend. hahaha.boy sitll hasnt called. hmm. honestly think that he's drunk. i just hope he gets back safe. really. my eyes are shutting down. but before that, i must tell you that ICE AGE 3 IS TOTALLY FUNNY. haha. i love the stupid squirel. haha. fighting over the nut. haha. well well well. its funny for me lah. haha. yesterday night, played CS with the gang. i wasnt too bad i think. :P feel like playing it now. haha.i had motion sickness though. haha. sucks. ask me bout it and i'll tell you.haha. oh man. i'm still thinking of ice age 3. ahaha.
ahh. the things that make me happy. ruben, hamid, presley, mei xian, divya, piriyah, and amanda. I LOVE YOU ALL. seriously. ruben: bed of roses. thank you for calling. <3 hamid: COUNSELLOR (: (: thank you.love,
norr.
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♥our lips must always be sealed
1:24:00 am
A bagpack 
Sunday, 26 July 2009