I HATE MYSELF! must they always start scolding me? wednesday was bad enough when they received my Mid-year results and satarted scolding me like i didnt pass.(which i did.)yesterday my mum was made to stay at home so that she could "look" after me. WHatever. it is so primary school. I am already 15 turning 16 and they say they treat me like an adut but heck, i think otherwise. dont get me wrong, i love them and all but seriously, SCOLDING me DOES NOT HELP me achieve anything. i get more demoralised that way.
my parents dont know me i feel and i think that is they way nowadays with parents and their children. seems that way cos the orals the schools give are always about how to improve relationships between parent and child or whether 'you' agree that parents nowadays are not close to their children. Well. My dad doesnt know me well enough. i think he doesnt even know my favourite colour or my favourite subject. he is always at work, come back and still does his work on his computer. i feel awkward talking to him about important things like mid-years and stuff. (i know he works for ME but i mean, working and bonding with family are two very different things.) oh well. my mum knows me, i tell her everything BUT the thing with her is that she loves my dad so much that what ever he says is right. and i, here feel extremely unimportant in the family cos even THE CAT is more important then me. really. that is like stabbing me in the heart and letting me bleed slowly. it hurts me.
well. i just cried like two buckets of tears out in more then two freaking sad hours. and i'm gonna cry a bit more cos i feel better letting out then keeping it in. its like crying on wednesday wasnt enough and now i needa continue. oh.i hate being the only child when its times like these cos i have really no one to talk to and i dont think anoyone wanted to listen to me cry. haha. my. thats the only laugh that is for today.oh i hate myself. anyway, i have to go and sleep now. ciaos. puffy and red eyes signing out.
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