
Thursday, 7 February 2008
shit. todays shit.
haha. actually not really but i have not received any ang pow money besides from desmond's mum. hmm. what the heck. tell you what happen today.
morning i woke up to find my mum looking rather unhappy and angry. Not knowing why, i just went ahead with my homework. Suddenly she comes to me and tells me that we arent going to my great grandmother's house. i never say anything but continue to do my stuff. i just go ahead with things. My dad doesnt know until the last minute when we were going out.lucky we were supposed to go to borders the bookstore before "going" to my great grandmother's hs. I was supposed to go to desmond's house for dinner at around 5.30pm. but my dad got quite angry when my mum did not answer him about the fact that she didnt want to go to my great grandmother's house. She was upset and never spoke until we were in borders. after i bought my books, she brought me to the Borders bistro. there, at the last minute before we go out of the bistro, she tells me that she's upset that i never stand up to desmond to say NO. kept saying that i should always stand up for my rights. i felt so bad. like i was the one who made her upset and caused us not to go to my great grandmother's house.
sigh. anyway, i didnt dare tell her but i would not have mind if we went to my great grandmother's hs. she made me feel useless,stupid. i think i might go emo. hmm. my chinese new year is going out pretty shitty. i hope it ends soon. i wanted to go to both desmond's place and to meet my cousins at my great grandmother's place. to be honest, i wouldnt mind going there. i love it. but staying there too long is really boring. For my mum, it must be okay as she has her sisters and brothers. Me? i only have my cousin, darren and jeannie. and they normally leave earlier then me. so, it must also be like that for my father. he's the only malay one and normally he just watches tv. its not that he hates do be there, he just finds it boring. my mum doesnt understand that. i dont want them to fight or anything. but i just dont want to be blamed. i wanted to go to desmond's house. i could have said no. i could. be i really wanted to go. is that wrong? do i have no freedom? oh shit.
i'll go emo. for tomorrow. i'll see how. =( ciaos.
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